kenapa sy gemok?

da msuk 2 mnggu ak dok umah ni x wt ap2..

my dad soh cari keje..tp siyezly sgt mls!

act da mula risau..sbb takut ble da x wt ap2 ni,badan akn naik dgn gembiranye..

haih.. =='

dlu ak kurus okay..sila pcaya..huhu

dlu ak pkai size M..kdg2 S pun ak bley muat..

now,XL pun blm tntu muat..gosh...sedih!

just imagine,i've gained 20kg in 5 month by doing nothing!

yes,tiada yg benar melainkn yg benar2 belaka,,

cte dy cmni..dlu mse skola teknik ak dok asrama..

b4 msuk hostel,im quite chubby..

then 2 tahun ak kt teknik,da start nmpk prubahan yg sgt ketara..

yg pelik nye,ak mkn cm biase,x bsenam lgsung,but ak bley maintain kurus..

mybe cara pemakanan kot..

yela,dok asrama..mknan pun kne catu..kdg2 mknan x sedap,x de la nk mkn..

then hostel teknik ni jarang provide air manis..slalunye dy bg air kosong je..

ble ad event2 je bru dy bg air sirap ke,oren ke..

so imagine,2 tahun ak just minum air kosong SAHAJA..

so x hairan lah npe ak bley kurus dlu..

see? ak setaraf ngn mber2 aku yg slim ni taw..huu~

i miss her.. T_______T

ini sy..sila percaya.. =='

look..i have no boobs..haih..

ok,then habis SPM ak nk cari keje..

yela,x kn nk dok umah 5 bln x wt pape kn?

then my mom x bg..act dy ni sgt over protective ngn ank2 dy..

lg2 ngn ak..sume x leh..itu x leh,ni x leh..

ak x pnah kua hang out ngn kwn2..g tgk wyang ke,shopping ngn kwn2 sume..

x pnah lgsung..if dorg wt event,konvoi g mne2,wt reunion..

ak mne pnah join,,sbb my mom x pnah bg..

nk x nk ak kne ikot la ckp dy..

so 2 lah titik permulaan badan ak naik tanpa rse bsalah..

20kg beb! bkn sikit..ak kne beli baju baru sbb sume x muat..

sgt2 sedih mse tu..rse mnyesal sgt2 sbb leka..

disebabkn bdan ak naik,so secara automatik my boobs pun mkin besar..

sgt malu ngn sume org..

makin lebar..da x same taraf ngn kwn2 yg sgt hot stuff..ouch! btw,yg tu Ezza..mse ktorg mle2 masuk,dy ad pnjam baju aku..dy yg kurus tu ngam2 pkai baju lame aku..nk taw baju ap? bju t-shirt pink yg ak pkai dlm gmbr kt atas ni yg caption dy "i miss her..T__T" yup,dy yg kurus pun muat2 pkai bju aku..kesimpulannye,dlu ak kurus mcm dy! cisss!

peha mbesar dgn bahagia.. =='

mse ni ak kne bli bju2 kurung baru untk g klas sbb x muat pkai bju kurung mse form5..

bcuz of ak x pnah keje lgsung,im facing some difficulty mse ak pny internship..

sbb ak x de pngalaman kerja..

then ak susa nk bergaul ngn org sbb ak mbesar dlm keadaan cm tu..

yela,ak 2 bradik je..abg ak da keje..so ak jd cm ank tunggal la..

dok umah stip kali cuti,x keje..cmne nk jd social?

smp 1 tahap tu,ak nekad tipu my mom..

ak ckp ak g uma mber kt ujung taman..

pdahal ak bley kua g Jusco kt klang,hang out ngn kwn2..

keje paling gila ak pnah wt,ak tipu my family..

ckp nk tido uma my granny..pdahal ak bley bawak moto sorg2 dri umah ak g umah kwn ak which is kt DAERAH lain..

mksudnye,jauh sgt ok..ad la dlm 3-4 jam nk g uma dy..

ngn kreta,lori segala..sume besar2..tp ak bley redah smate2 nk rse cmne rse bebas tu..x psal2 ak mberontak smp cmtu skali..

no metter what happened,i still LOVE u mummy! :')

ak bkn nk sala kn my mom..

ak taw dy jd over protective cmtu sbb dy x nk jd ap2 kt ak..

tp ble dy wt cm tu,ak rse terkongkong..zaman remaja ak x mcm org lain..

ble ak dpt masuk Uitm Penang,gosh,ak happy sgt!

ak bley wt ap yg ak da lame impikan..finally! :D

but my mom lah org yg paaaaling risau mse nk lepas kn ak..

dy takot ak wt bnd bkn2..culture shock la konon..

then along ckp "tu la mama..kalo dlu mama bg dy bebas skit,mybe dy x de la nk culture shock sgt..''

ble ak da study kt penang,ak x de la jakun sgt..ok je sume..

eh,ni da lari topik ni,,haha

okay,so..now ak da jd sgt gemok..berat ak skrg,emm...mmg berat..

haha..sje x nk gtaw..malu lah!

ak da pnah try diet..mse sem 2..ak x mkn nasi for 1 month..

ok la..ak bley pkai blk bju2 mse ak form5 dlu..

tp x lame..cuti sem je,ak bantai mkn nasi..

nk wt cmne? my mom masak sedap2..x kn nk tgk je..mne tahan beb!

so masuk sem 3,ak jd gemok blk..x muat da bju2 form5..

sedih! sob3..then ad la try minum ubat2 kurus..biase je..

nk bli jus mate,x mampu mak nokk!

haa..x de la kurus sgt..tp oka la dri mse sem 1 dlu kn?

tp ni pun kejap je merasa..sob3..

now ak cuti untill bln 9..tu pun kalo dpt smbung..

kalo x dpt smbung,hmm..makin bambam la akuuu..

tp kn,ak bsyukur jgk ble da jd gemok ni..

sbb ak da x pkai baju sendat2 taw skrg..baju pun sume bwah bontot..

kalo zaman kurus dlu,pntang baju besar skit,mst ak kecik kn..

baju bwah bontot,mst ak trim..

so ak da terhindar la dri dosa sbb pkai bju ketat2 ni..insyallah..

tp 2 x bmakne ak akn stay cmni..

hope boley transfom cmni lg one day..insyallah.. :')

insyallah ak akn try kuruskn bdn mse cuti ni..

skit pun jd la..kalo bley b4 grad..

t jmp kwn2 blk,baru la dorg kagum..haha..okay,niat da salah..=='

ak nk kurus untuk kebaikan ak jgk,untuk kesihatan..

bkn sbb nk mnunjuk2 or tarik prhatian lelaki..

ouh,tidak same sekali..

kalo tarik perhatian ex boyfie aku tu,ade kmungkinan..haha

bia pdan muke dy sbb da dump aku dulu..

tredmill pun da ad kt umah ni..tggal nk guna je,,

tp cm tu lah..mls ya rabbi..

tp ak pkse dri! yeahh!

fara boleh! :D